Sunday, February 3, 2008
Here is a continue of my previous blog entry
As wat i said i went to watch 27 dresses....... its a happy show but dun i was sad.... while watching this show i remember some one she is Monica....... and oso shed much of my tears...... y i suddenly remember her cox the main actress in this movie has a same character as monica.... the way she act the way say talk......
In 17 March 1997 , at 12.45 pm..... monica was pronouce dead due to luekimia all seven of us cried like hell...... i noe monica since nursery..... in fact we grew up together... than we went to the same pri school..... and happen to be in the same class..... at that time we both were very closer to each other than more of the others join in so in our clique we have a total of 8....... They r grace , yuki , elizabeth , sherlyn , samantha , nicole , monica n me......we have had happy moments....... and oso sad moment....
Imagine a very good fren who alway walk to school , walk back home , cycle , play.... etc .... together and after 17 March , i can no longer play , cycle etc.... with her .....
Few months before she depart..... i felt something wrong with her..... hair n figure getting thinner n thinner ...... and hava a sudden lost of weight....... than some more everytime MC......
She told me she is dignose with cancer...... at the last stage le..... at that time i dun noe wat is cancer..... but to me it sound like a serious illness.......
On 12 March 1997 she is admitted to the hospital...... all 7 of us went to see her..... together with our mums...... our last happy moments with her was..... when playing monoploy...... in the hospital...... than on the 17 March 1997 morning her condition was from bad to worst...... than she left us at the age of 8 (haven past her birthdate)........
I have been asking god : y u wanna take monica back , had she done wrong ? she was innocent...... this question has been with me till ....... now......
After the movie, i was CKB and ask me
CKB : where have u been .....
Me : watch movie me lo (my tone was Arhhhh....)
CKB : u sure was sad movie le..... n cry right .
Me: No la i watch 27 dresses but i think of sad things.....
CKB : u huh.... really CMI....
He oso taking night rider home , so we went home together. than in the bus he feel asleep.... i listening to my MP3.... but still missing her...... thinking of her..... when reaching my stop , CKB said he wan to send to my door step cox late le...... than i ok lo......
Me: u noe which block i stay
CKB : i noe la..... dun worries won bring u to the wrong block....de
i was sooooo blurrrr..... din see the green man , when i was abt to cross the road.... when the red man is on..... i felt some one holding my right hand n said be careful...... i though was him..... but he was on my left hand side..... than when i heard some one telling me to be careful is a girlie voice..... than i ask him
Me : Did u hear any one saying be careful......
CKB : 大姐，不要吓我lei，先在几点了
Me : Nv scare u la..... really.....
Than he look at me.... i look at him..... i not scare but he seens to be soooo scare.....
Me: u scare ah.....
CKB : no lo....
Me: than y u walk soooo fast.....
than he slow down.... but i can feel somebody following me..... i turn back .... no body lei....
My feeling was telling me that is monica following me ...... if not how come i m not scare.....
He was walking in front of me , leading me home..... ended up bring me to the sport complex....
Me: y u bring me here ....
He : i though u stay here..... (pointing the block 512)
Me : No i stay block 516
than ended up i lead him to my hse instead......
CKB : or... or... i wanted to come here just now....
Me : u dun bullshit la.... ok bye thank for send me home....
CKB : No problem.... we shall meet out the next time....
After my normal routine , i went online in skype ...... saw yuki online than she call me through skype..... talk to me.... while i m sitting outside my hse...... the steps there...... that i told her abt wat happen on my way home..... she say
Yuki : it must be monica than.....
Me : Years passed so fast she left us for..... this March is 11th year.......
Yuki : we will be back on 15 March...... than we will go to her grave yard to pay her a visit
Me: Ya we should.... i noe where is it.... than maybe we can oso pay her parents a visit.....
while Chatting with yuki i was looking at the sky thinking how is monica..... wat is she doing.... we both shed tears again.... we r all missing her deeply......
This is my Msg to Monica.... : no matter where u r...... u r still remembered by us..... in our heart..... i dun mind giving my lifespan to u..... as long u were alright but if i give u now its allll tooooo late...... hey gal..... we shall meet in our next life time..... i really wan to..... really...... gal gal remember our fun time we r crazy..... dancing , singing , talking rubbish.....etc..... so gal rest in peace .......May god bless u n i .......
The prayer to u....... : God may u shine the perpetual light at her...... and lead her..... may u grant us n her a wish which is meeting in our next lifetime....... May her rest in peace...... n being bless....
This song name "I turn to u" is sung by Christina Aguilera...... is delicate to Monica.....
Once again Gal rest in peace
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